Inside Out

It’s been two weeks now since I’m in college, I really like it

Sorry if I don’t have much time anymore, but I’ll try to post more often.

Today, I was with my father, watching TV for about an hour. We were watching a show about the exchange of the two mothers between two families. At first, you can think that think kind of reality show is stupid, but as says someone I can’t remember : “The wise learns more from the fool than the fool learns from the wise”. There is a second level to almost everything, I think.

One of the mothers loved her dogs more than her family (she denied the fact) and she didn’t sleep with her husband. He was no man, she emasculated him, he lost his will with that wife. While she was shopping for already factory-made food from the grocery store, she was saying that they were in AMERICA, therefore, everyone should drive huge gas-sucking SUVs and eat microwave food. She also took a bath with three dogs after saying that eating in washable plates was not sanitary. 

On the other side, the family she was staying with was living in a community of eco-friendly people who grew their own vegetables. They were using a bidet instead of toilet paper and were making compost, they were doing some meditation, etc, etc.

I thought that the second family(their son was incredibly hot) was way better than the first one (their son was even more incredibly hot). I and still have to admit they really were more useful to the earth than the first family were.  We don’t need bad people. The mother who loved the dogs more than her family was crazy without having any mental illness. Sadly, I assume that to loose faith in other humans, she has been deceived by someone important to her, so she fled into the love for dogs to avoid human contact.

We actually are producing 7 billion tons of Co2 per year. The planet we live on can only recycle 3 billion tons. the math is easy:

1. We are too much humans
2. We  don’t do things correctly

One American = 11tons of Co2/year – _-_-_-_-_-_-_-  one Indian =0.5 tons of Co2/year                     we are about 6, 930, 000, 000

(and yet)

Optimistic people are a good thing, but a lot of people seem naive to me. Here, in Quebec, the Prime minister and almost everybody whine about the slow rate of population growth, there are natalist measures to help people having more kids. Fatal mistake. I wouldn’t care about immigration if humans, while being all the same, are so different one of each other.

It makes me wonder why some people are stupid and think that they are better than everybody else.

Yeah, I was taking a break and took some vacantaion away from the city. Pictures soon! (the camera is still there)

My mom thinks I’m a gay slut, drug-addict, superficial bitch. Have you ever felt that way?

Lately, things have been so bizarre for me I just don’t know what to think and even less what to do. You know that I don’t post a lopt of info on myself, I can’t help it. The less of me there is on the internet, the better it is. Now, you might ask, why you have a blog and you don’t even have Facebook when you don’t wanna be on the internet? Because I don’t give a shit about Facebook, and because this blog allows me to vent, even if I don’t post everything I feel I should. When I walk around and I see something beautiful, I immediately think I should put it on this blog, but I restrain myself.

You and I don’t need this me-me-me-me-me-me thing, I mean wouldn’t this be voyeurism? There’s enough reality-tv shit shows out there, my blog will be more to make you think about other things, unusual things. I love the unusual, I love people, I love you reader, but I can also hate people (even if it doesn’t last long).

Humans look like monkeys.

Proof:

Don’t you think?

Last Friday, a guy asked me out and I refused him. Part of me said, he’s no good, but the other part said “he needs you, your help”. He was really a mess, he life was really twisted, but I will keep this a private matter, and I really wanted to hep him getting better in his life. The thing is that in order for this to happen he would have not to love me, which was not the case, or I would have to love him. I do like him, but I don’t love him.

I guess I’m not easy. The thing is that I know what I want and I will not compromise in a love relationship and settle for something that I would not be comfortable in. This was a strange decision to make, I don’t believe in love at first sight, but it seems he flashed on me the second he saw me. Feels strange. I don’t have any gay friend and he could have introduced me to his all-gay world, yet I turned him down. I don’t regret, but not being with him doesn’t rejoice me neither.

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Do I expect too much from other people?

I don’t know if you went to watch this movie, but you really should (I feel like I only give some positive comments here). Ms. Streep is absolutely adorable in her role ^^ and her personality is as sweet as her chocolate cake!

Although the movie sometimes feel a bit long, you go out of the cinema with a big smile. Guaranteed (only if you don’t think every movie should be a masterpiece)

If you are bored, go watch The Tyra Banks show. Tyra really gets hot subjects and always have special events on stage, wich are very funny for the most part     

And you get to see faces like that.

Here are some clips I selected for you.

Gay 4 pay

ABS, tyra likes them

Clueless —- the picture is from this video

Rejected (a very funny one)

MAD

Fake diva

Insanity (you can now see how much we are like monkeys)a (intended)

Seriously, I can’t take it anymore. I’m eating so much I will have muffin tops.

I guess this is what happens when you get old. By the way, I’m going to be 17 years old in a few days

I’m thinking to begin to throw up after a meal if I eat too much. One of my friend did it and she says that it is a great way to loose weight (for an unhealthy way, of course). I already did that after eating a whole bag of chips, but I hate the feeling. I feel so stupid right now, I want to loose weight and I just made chocolate with cocoa butter, cocoa powder, sugar and SKIM milk. I never thout doing chocolate would be so easy. I wonder why and how I did it, because I never saw any recipe that showed how to make chocolate that way.

Here’s my created recipe, if you want to know what  you’re eating then give it a try:

1. 100 grams of cocoa butter
2. 60 grams of white sugar
3. 20 grams of cocoa powder
4. 50 ml of skim milk

Of course this is an absolute scratch recipe, please adjust the quantities to your own taste. You have to make sure that there is enough cocoa butter, for the fat to solidify in the fridge. If the mix is too liquid, add cocoa powder and of course, if it is too sour, put more sugar.

This is a great way to eat more fruits, or to make more tasting cakes. For those who like to experiment in your kitchen, enjoy!

Update : I just tasted mine; it is soooo good. Still not 100% solid, but I put about 120 ml of milk (that means I adjusted before writing, so yours should be okay). If your mix still doesn’t solidify, put it in a freezer after sticking fruits (ex: blueberries, raspberries, mango slices, passionfruit, etc.) and you will have a delicious summer cool-desert. It is home-made chocolate made with high-quality ingredients, so don’t expect it to taste like Hershey’s or Idontknowwich kind of factory-made chocolate. The taste is more complex and rich, so don’t be surprised if it is different from what you know.

Lol I kind of forgot to give you the instructions, since  it was obvious of how to do it for me in my own kitchen

1. Pour the milk into the bain-marie and rise its temperature a bit, enoguh for the cocoa butter to melt, but never boil milk.
2. Put the cocoa butter in the bain-marie and melt it. Whip it for about 25 seconds.
3. Put the cocoa powder an adjust for the mix to right consistency  (like if you melted chocolate you bought).
4. Put sugar and adjust to your own taste and whip until the mix is perfectly homogeneous.
5. Pour into any mold of your choice and put it it your fridge of freezer.

That’s it, it’s that simple. Make sure to use a bain-marie, not a microwave (I know some lazy people who wasted 25$ of ingredients just by using a microwave for cheesecake, that’s another story anyways) as the bain-marie ensures a low temperature melting, so your chocolate will not burn and therefore will not taste like shit, because that’s the taste of burnt chocolate. A bain-marie uses the steam of the boiling water that is boiling in the recipient under the bain-marie.

Antonia (released as Antonia’s Line in the English-speaking world) is a 1995 film by Dutch director, writer, and feminist Marleen Gorris. The film, described by its director as a “feminist fairy tale,” tells the story of the matronal Antonia (Willeke van Ammelrooy) who, after returning to the anonymous Dutch village of her birth, establishes and nurtures a close-knit matriarchal community. Spanning nearly forty years starting just after World War II, it follows Antonia as she takes over the family farm, befriends a recluse, takes in the village simpleton, and provides a home for a retarded young woman who has been raped by a brother. The film covers a breadth of liberal topics, with themes ranging from death and religion to sex, intimacy, lesbianism, misandry and love. It won the 1996 Academy Award for Best Foreign Language Film, the Toronto International Film Festival People’s Choice award, and the Nederlands Film Festival Golden Calf award. Filmed in Belgium.

Text from : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Antonia%27s_Line_(film)

This is one of the best movies I have ever seen. If you never watched it, run, run and go rent it. It amazed me and will cause me to write a post on rape.

I’m very exited right now because my mom has bought me a new notebook for college   It is so niiice and it has 10 hours of battery life. However, I just found out that it was sold cheaper on Amazon than Tigerdirect, which I believed was the best price I could get.

This is so fun it kinds of sooths my personnal emptiness

Some of you may already have read gay literacy and if not, wondered if there were any. the truth is that there is plenty of that stuff in your local biliary!

Actually, I devoured this book in just a day. This is what happens when I decide to be a no-life and read all day long. I eat books for my sustenance.

The story is good and it is fun to see which character who can compare yourself to. For guys who are still in the closet, this might be more interesting as you follow the story of 3 gay people who deal with their environment and (twisted) relationships. 2 of them experience their coming-out,so it might give you ideas on how you can do yours. My family have been cool about it, but it might not be your case, so think twice before doing anything foolish, and read that book.